Taehyung's POV

Words can scar one but silence can devour one alive . It felt like a trap in my own house , and I had willingly stepped inside , accepting the fate. The silence in this house was deadly, deafening , so much that it made my skin crawl. I didn't wish to be alone but I forced myself to be . Because loneliness was the only solace , even though it was painful.

Y/n didn't deserve to be with a man like me . A man with too many flaws which could snatch away her possibilities of a happy life ahead. I didn't intend to hold her back any longer after trying to make her happy and failing miserably .

Exactly a year and month back I took a decision of which I couldn't have imagined myself as a part of . Not after everything so dark about myself. Having me as a partner would possibly ruin one's life . And even after knowing so , I agreed to this marriage. Not because I wished to but because I was forced to . Nobody ever disagreed with my father's words .

He was a man of power and always had his ways to make his demands amended. He had had his eyes on Luma for some months and they reached a deal to seal with marriage, I had my ways to escape from this all closed. My wish to not marry, ever , was just an unheard plea which no one bothered to hear but things started to shift after the marriage.

I was a man who stuck to his own set of rules . One of them was to never fall in love again . Never . Love only reminded me of the past which I desperately wanted to forget. But even therapies didn't help me to do so . I feared to close my eyes . I feared the dark which would remind me of the moments of heartbreak, betrayal and violence. I feared to be touched which would then proceed to make me feel the lingering of that contact on my skin , slowly crawling up till where my heart was and then squeezing it .